the personal corners of the internet are so wonderful, i could scroll site hosts for hours, just looking at the people's websites, love pouring from every page i examine and investigate, how much there is to admire about someone's coding work.

to create my own website; something so customizable and unique to myself, has been something i've wanted to pick up for years... i just thought i'd be too bad at coding to even begin to learn. (which isn't true, by the way, anybody can at least put together a functioning website when they put their mind to it! i believe in you!)

i'm extremely new to code, if it isn't obvious from the mishaps and poor work of my site i cobbled together to the best of my ability. it's like... i aim for perfection, but i'm also not the brightest, i spent hours trying to get my columns to be properly floated and aligned so my page would display the same for everybody, and i just couldn't figure it out! i got super frustrated and just put it down for the time being.

seeing the gorgeous work of so many other webmasters was very intimidating me, and part of what made me so completely enamored with owning a personal site. though, at the same time, it intimidated me. such beautiful work, a glimpse into the throes of someone's soul through code i view on my computer, i wish to compare to it! i want to be like it, i want my site to be beautiful and i want it to work how i want it to. . .

i know this though, they have much more experience than me, they've been doing this for much longer than i have, and it isnt fair for me to expect myself to produce something as high quality as theirs at such a time when i've just recently learnt how to do any of this at all. the answer isn't to give up and accept my coding work will always be more shabby, it's to keep trying to improve!

so i will keep trying, even if i get very confused and lost along the way... practice makes perfect, right?

p.s: if you have any coding advice or any resources for my issue... i'd really appreciate it :3